Hmm and Hahhh

Hmmming and Hahhhing is just exactly what I have been doing. How many times do I have to change my mind before I will settle on something that makes me truly happy? I am beginning to get more and more pessimistic about things. Things in general. Life. Mehhh. This time last year, I made the stupidest decision of my life. But alot of good things came from it. Alot of strange and wrong and bad things came of it too, but that's all out of my hands now. I have in some strange way repeated/reversed my decision from last year, I'm not entirely sure which. But I am so very scared. Scared that I have made an even worse decision than last year, and scared that there won't be as many good things to come to make up for it. Mehhhh. Sad Rosie is sad. And confused, and worried, and all those beautiful emotions.